Dating

Not what it's cracked up to be - definitely could be much more than what it really is. Whens the last time you were on a real date? Dinner...movies...cocktails... or any combination of fun activities with someone of the opposite sex you were genuinely interested in?? Well, it's been several weeks for me. Too infrequent for my liking. Is it unrealistic to expect to be asked out often? Maybe it's because the economy is bad so I should simply blame the current administration and their long overdue strategies on boosting consumer spending to turn around the recession.. See there I go being too intellectual and over analyzing again...perhaps the reason why no one calls...

housewarming...house party...home invasion

I can honestly say that I had an incredible time. Even with the drama, I'm happy and in good spirits. Great friends make life exciting and I consider myself blessed. To come together and celebrate milestones and personal accomplishments the way we do is remarkable.

PS/ Ladies and Zak... Thanks for being there to pick up the pieces!!!! My mood would have been totally different had it not been for you.

Why????

I usually don't blog this early in the day but writing out my feelings is the only way I know how to get my thoughts together enough in order to move on with the rest of my day...

The news this morning was suffocating. Mom called to see if I was getting ready for work. "Of course not" I groaned because I always oversleep! Then she got quiet and I knew something was wrong. My mind raced with the names and faces of the people I knew she was calling to tell me had passed. I was never expecting to hear Frankie's name. Never! She continued..."Frankie was shot and killed last night." Tears rolling down my face I screamed "Why???" God makes no mistakes and I know we shouldn't question but seriously this is the second young person HE has taken from my family this month. I'm so sad but my heart aches more for my Aunt and my cousin's kids. Please keep them in your prayers...

Resolution

To always live in this moment.
I'm learning that you can't continue to put things or people off to another day as that day may never come.

Rainy Night

All night you sing to me. I close my eyes and listen to familiar melodies I yearn for when the days are long. Though roaring and strong, I feel your gentleness as I lay back and wait for more. I reach out but I'm captivated and weak. Your harmonies calm my soul and I fall off to sleep...

Girlfriends

You all are strong, influential women that mean the world to me. School, careers, families, and distance may keep us apart at times but please know how much you mean to me and that you’re always apart of me. We may not speak everyday but I need you to know that I love you. Just wanted to share…

Newness

Newness: the feelings of excitement and fun-loving times one experiences at the pre-beginnings of a romantic relationship. Ha!! Yeah I know that sounds like it came from Webster’s but I just made up that definition. But we all know the feeling. My longest relationship lasted for 2 ½ years but technically if you discount the amount of time we spent doing the long-distance thing and multiply it by the number of nights we couldn’t stand to be around each other when we were actually together, minus the special occasions he ruined with his lack of emotion for anyone other than himself, then divide that by the number of times we actually were happy I think the true number is really 8 months. Historically I average about 4-5 months though. Perhaps it’s because eventually the newness dissipates and we lose interest. This time around, I want something substantial that will endure…. But I must stress that I am not rushing into anything as I understand how much work is required to build and maintain a strong, healthy relationship. My career and education are important to me at this stage in my life. I also am finding the necessary “Me time” needed to reconnect with myself, defining the next set of life goals, and strengthening the bonds that I currently have in my life.

First blog of 2008

Happy New Years! My apologies for it taking so long. Blame it on Verizon.. I’ve been without Internet and cable service for 3 weeks. But having Fios and their free promotional LCD flat screen television is well worth the wait in my opinion. So now I fill my evenings with knitting, DVD movie rentals, listening to old CDs, and reading. I feel so out of touch with reality… no weather updates, no Today show, no Style network, no 106 & Park!! ARGHH!!
So what’s new? I’ve settled into the condo. I absolutely love it. My father and friends helped me paint and I’m starting to add the finishing decorative touches around the place. It’s fabulous in a sort of one-bedroom-first-starter-home kind of way. At work, I’ve been promoted to the lead of my department. I’m taking over more of the high level cash forecasting and tracking that I’ve always found more interesting. I know it will be challenging juggling those responsibilities as well as providing overall direction to the team but I’m looking forward to it. This is what I love… taking something that seems nearly impossible then figuring out how it works so that I can control it and make it my own.